Chaos

Sometimes impossible to explain 
I am here finally by myself 
like always the voices around me are noise 
I am not going anywhere like this 
just a chaos waiting to happen. 

There is no such perfection but 
it's you simply, I tell myself 
what I know is only my belief 
for it shall not skip my peace 
my mind tell me this, yet I cannot speak. 

My reason is starting to give up 
my wisdom is nothing rather sorrow 
I am a savior soul, this body crunching 
I cannot sleep with good thoughts 
I am lost in this playful wilderness. 

There is no dilemma, but my guts yell 
it's all diverted, I cannot focus 
working hard my soul is all in fatigue 
big words really don't describe me 
I am a simple myself alive. 

I take long breaths and I am quiet 
but there is no stopping to my noise 
that scream off my soul and noise 
i enjoy the music of peace 
now it comes again to hurt me.

I get my credit, get my choice 
Its a hard one but I sense chaos 
I know it will hurt me forever 
but I play my choice, my stand 
this silent life, this is a chaos.